Journey with Juice

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Wherever you go, you meet yourself ...

My last day of my "Journey in Juice" ... came to an end yesterday. Thirty days of living on fresh locally pressed fresh juice.

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I was going to write a post about my journey with juice prior to leaving on my adventure in Morocco but I couldn't find the words...

it felt as though the juice was still having its way with me....continuing to nourish and fuel me from the inside...

beaming light into the the dark corners of my body.

It was and is one of the ultimate gifts I have given myself...

The fuel to not only cleanse and fill me cells and give my body a break from having to work at digesting food or the unbelievable task that it is given of having to breakdown food that isn't really even food anymore -

Like most of us I had gotten complacent in my attempt to nourish and nurture myself,  not making it the priority it truly deserves to be...

The connection of not taking the time to give nourishment to my body and therefore my life.... is a common and familiar path to which I have walked.

The making everybody or everything the highest on the list and then being too wiped to pick me....

After all the planes I have taken in this last few weeks, I am laughing out loud as I recall the at the flight attendant demoing her oxygen mask.... "'put the mask on yourself first and then help those around you"

 It does seems and sounds so simple doesn't it?

Next, time... tomorrow...but I have to do this first ....who else will do it then, would be nice if I could, I would really like too BUT!  The reasons go on and on...

  I went running to therapy in my early thirties because I was done, I had enough of the life that I was somehow choosing by the decisions I was making....one day I woke and said 'It is time'  to face this next level of playing small, being unworthy and not choosing me ~

 I felt the same away again about self care.....I had dabbled before in getting my food aligned with my life, health and values.

I had gotten through 2 ten day juice cleanse a couple of years prior with Laurel and I had felt great and yet slowly I had fallen off the fuelling my body train again....

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Creating a new business, website building and navigating my life would take over the next year, feeling both energized and depleted by the experience...food again took a back seat...

Being a vegetarian at worst and raw vegan at best (how I vibrate the best) I some how had come back to grabbing almond butter and hummus and off I would go.

I didn't want to take the time to cook for myself.  I told a friend in Morocco something the other day that was telling...I said I only wanted to put the effort into cooking if the people I cooked for enjoyed, appreciated and were worthy of my time....I guess I was saying was true, I was of unworthy of cooking for myself?

The root of this dance that I have been dancing with food is the same as all the others...deeming myself unworthy....I am worthy and I must treat myself in accordance.

Radical self care was what I needed to implement and I reached out to my friend and wellness goddess Laurel Lightbourn who designs and delivers fresh local pressed juices in our community here on the Sunshine Coast of BC.

When the student is ready the teacher appears is in truth always the case...many little angels sit waiting, watching until your ready?

The gift of having hand pressed fresh nutrients brought to my door every three days was a delight. I was fuelled and after the first three days of what I call transition, either in detoxing or in my case it was more like my body was experiencing a blast of pure goodness that left me and my foggy brain with a clarity that hasn't stopped since.

To say I am hooked is an understatement...I can't tell you in words the impact that this has and is having on my life....

It feels although the a clearing, a portal to my very essence has been opened up!

I had much to do around that time, implementing an new avenue of work and having to focus and do things that truly haven't been in my wheelhouse,

my pattern in the past had been to let overwhelm (fear) take over and keep me paralyzed in the same thing different way approach, it wasn't really broken,  right...you don't get to live that dream...who do you think you are... blah blah....hamster wheel - saboteur.

I feel the difference this time was being truly ready as well I was consciously choosing me in every decision along every part of this new journey.

Reaching out for support and actually paying someone else to actually help me, giving me the nourishment and freedom to concentrate on my work at the same time.

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I not only made some deadlines, I was also a participant in the annual Sunshine Coast Art Crawl where I live. I made some hard decisions during that time that were necessary to move me and my business forward...all the work seemed to be entered around continuing on the one true thing...paying for support to help propel myself forward...

The journey to bring this vision I have had ever since I was a small girl into reality...to be abie to share it with you all and the biggest reason of all is to to serve others in living their dreams whatever they may be...

“If you have the ability to love, love yourself first.” ― Charles Bukowski

Laurel I can't thank you enough for your support with you beautiful live fresh juices, and your friendship... it is truly a gift.

The take away is you are worthy, like I am worthy. We can't always do it alone and I have realized that sometimes a financial investment is required to implement our dreams...

For me the connection between my value (worth) and paying for (cost) was connected. This long ago, ever present limiting belief needed to be faced, in the month of clarity and rest from old patterns, I got access to what in fact was driving me all along.  The ways in which I had previously used nicotine, alcohol, money and food was a direct reflection on my numbing and avoiding me...my inability to love myself and treat myself in a way that I had always treated others I loved...but I now see that how well could I really love another if I first wasn't able to love myself...like that  oxygen mask on the plane and my feeling of unworthiness....

I truly believe it is my job to not only take care of myself but to in fact thrive...to do everything in my power to make my dreams come true...it is not selfish, it is infact essential...for those around me and I believe the world itself, now more than ever.

I will practice being mindful and aligning  both my resources and time with what is in my greatest good...

You can connect with Laurel at http://laurellightbourn.com/#!/OMG and give yourself the ultimate gift in self care.